{indecision}

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© eunice brownlee 2011

This year has been truly great to me and my business. I have embarked on adventures I merely caught a glimpse of on the horizon. I spent a lot more time working my business this year than in years past, and I can definitely say that it’s the first time that I think I’ll turn a decent profit, although it’s still not near enough for me to quit the other four (yes, I just said four) part-time jobs I have to make ends meet.

I have a couple of dear friends who are also aspiring photographers that call to pick my brain on all things photography. I’ve had others approach me to mentor someone who wants to “get into photography.” Heck, I was even asked to be a panel member at last month’s CRAVE Denver chat and impart some level of business wisdom on fellow business owners.

But I have to be honest – I’m not all that.

In fact, it cracks me up when people want advice from me. I’m tempted to show them my balance sheets and ask them if they’re still interested in hearing what I have to say.

This year, I have taken some of the biggest risks with my business, as well as made some of the biggest decisions. They’ve paid off with strong rewards. But on more than one occasion this year, I’ve wanted to say, “eff it,” and walk away. It seemed like the smart thing to do. It didn’t make sense to me to keep on fighting to keep a barely profitable business afloat. I asked myself, “is this a sign from God that I’m chasing the wrong dream?” Rather than give up the fight, I fought harder. Guess what? I won.

The thing is, no one tells you that when you run your own business that you spend your time beating your head against the wall in frustration more than anything else. Every day is about making decisions. The challenge with most small business owners is that they are so afraid to make a bad decision that they make no decision at all. That, my friends, is actually the worst decision you can make.

This spring, I decided to run a special with a group-deal site. I wasn’t sure if it was right for my business. I’d read all of the opinions from the “experts” on if this was a good trend for small business or not. I weighed the pros and cons, and at the end, I realized that the only way I would know if it was a good fit for my business was to just do it.

Turns out, it wasn’t a good fit. It was a horribly expensive decision. But I did it, and now I know. I learned a lot of lessons along the way and my business in 2012 will be reflective of those lessons I learned. In the end, there is no magic solution for how to operate your business; there is no magic formula for what will profit and what won’t. What’s right for mine won’t be right for yours. You just have to look at all the options and make a decision on what you think is best and go with it. You can’t be afraid to make a wrong choice. Fact is, you’ll make them. Heck, even Coca-Cola still gets it wrong sometimes.

{grateful}

fresh image consulting denver portrait photographer

© eunice brownlee 2011

A friend of mine asked me last night why I haven’t been posting photos of my recent sessions lately. The answer to that, my friends, is I have been busy. It’s a lame excuse, I know, but even my mom made a comment on how apparent my lack of sleep was from a random text I sent her. I absolutely LOVE being busy.

It is a fact that 2011 has been the best year ever at Eunice Brownlee Photography. I accomplished several major goals this year, including opening a studio, getting published and hitting my sales goal. In all, I shot 48 portrait sessions, 6 charity events, and one high school reunion. I am so blessed.

I am so grateful to all of my wonderful clients for their support of my business, and for my friends and family that keep me going, even in times when I want to throw in the towel and run crying back to Corporate America. I am grateful for the amazing network of fellow business owners I have met who allow me to cry, vent, and bounce ideas off of on a regular basis. I am excited for all the new partnerships I have developed with other companies and look forward to showing you what we have up our sleeve.

It’s been a challenging, yet rewarding adventure. This year, I’ve added new products and services to my business and have taken others away. I have lived my dream and I look forward to expanding it even further next year!

I hope you’ll join me; it’s going to be a wild ride!

{news | new digs}

© john bosley photography 2011

I am so ridiculously excited about getting to cross #11 off of my list. I really didn’t expect that I would accomplish that goal, but I wrote it down.

Back in April or May, one of my fellow CRAVE sisters threw out a suggestion of having a retail space that was filled with CRAVE businesses. A few people agreed it would be cool and when we showed up to the initial meeting, all that was there were photographers. The project morphed into a co-op space with four studios, which we have affectionately named The Space @ LoHi.

Each of us remain our own separate entities, but we all live under the same roof and are working towards creating a green, functional workspace and client meeting space for all of us, as well as other professionals around the Denver metro area.

We will be hosting our grand opening next Thursday, September 8th from 5-10 pm. If you’re in Denver, please come down and say hi! We’re located at 2525 15th St, #1A. We’re on the west side of I-25,  two blocks up from REI and right across the street from Forest Room 5.

the apprentice

Back in 2004, when pursuing my bachelor’s degree in business management, a group got up to give their presentation on conflict management. As a part of their presentation, they showed a clip from a boardroom scene from the second season of The Apprentice. That five minute clip changed my life forever.

I had to know how it turned out — what the next challenge would be, who would get fired next, who would ultimately win a spot on Donald Trump’s payroll. Over the years, I’ve watched off and on, but I re-discovered this little television gem on hulu the other night and stayed up to watch the first three episodes of this season. (Gee, no wonder I’m sick). While I definitely enjoyed the “regular people” version of this show better, the celebrity aspect is a lot of fun.

Although this season, I don’t get why this group of stars aren’t all jumping at the chance to earn money for their charities…they are drawing straws to see who is going to get stuck as project manager, rather than seeing who will win out. Kind of disappointing, if you ask me.

So with this new season, I’ve discovered a few things:

I am totally in love with John Rich. I’m already a fan of his, but man, that guy is awesome. And not too hard on the eyes.

I still hate Richard Hatch. I hated him on Survivor, and was mad that he’d won back then. His demeanor on this show just proves to me that I still can’t stand to listen to the man.

The Donald admires someone that’s willing to stand up for him/herself more than failure. So far, the four people fired (David Cassidy, Lisa Rinna, and Niki Taylor, Dionne Warwick) all pretty much got fired not because they failed, but because they wussed out and didn’t fight for themselves when they got into the board room.

I don’t ever want to be on the wrong side of the docket if Star Jones is one of the attorneys involved.

Marlee Matlin is still the cutest thing ever.  She’s hilarious. I hope she wins.

I still wish that I could compete on this show. While I don’t think that I’m necessarily ruthless enough, I would kill to work on most of the tasks that are set forth in this show.

Gary Busey is a whack job. This isn’t exactly news, but really – I’m not sure if he’s really that crazy or if it’s all an act. One thing I do know is that Charlie Sheen makes Busey a winner.

I’m also mad that Lisa Rinna got the boot this early. She was totally set up by those other chicks to fail, and for that, I think it sucks. Mostly because I just love her, but even so. Cattiness never prevails ladies.

I still haven’t decided who I would like to see win this thing. Too early in the game, I suppose.

How about you? Any Apprentice fans out there?

The non-monetary paycheck

A few years ago, I started shooting more portrait sessions after deciding that I was much more comfortable in the role of portrait artist than photojournalist. I was unsure about making the change because in school, I didn’t really like shooting people in posed environments. In fact, I HATED portraiture assignments.

I wish I could find the image right now (I will look for it again), because I know my description won’t do it justice, but the best commentary on this fact was a lighting assignment I did in college. The assignment: a portrait using a single lighting source. I may  have been a little lot vocal about my lack of desire to do it.

My image was a picture of a guy holding an exposed lightbulb, closing his eyes and cringing from the light as if it were going to melt him. The comment from my instructor was, “this pose tells more about you as an artist than it does the subject. It communicates your disdain for the exercise very well.”

I also cursed the number of hours I spent in the darkroom burning in that damn lightbulb.

But I love that image. It does say a lot about me at the time, as well as my feelings about the subject (my now ex-husband).

Now that I have begun shooting portraits as a specialty, I love it. I have so much fun working with the clients, posing them, laughing with (and sometimes at) them, and having a great time getting the shots. I love how when I get an idea and express it, there are clients that surprise me by doing things like scaling a six foot wall…in heels.

© eunice brownlee 2009

My favorite part, though, is when someone feels less than confident, when they hate having their photo taken, when they think that there haven’t been very good portraits of them in the past, and I can give them the image where they say, “wow, I love this!”

© eunice brownlee 2009

Pulling together a powerful image that makes people feel proud of who they are is why I do what I do and why I love doing it.

Photography as the new WFH opportunity

 

© eunice brownlee 2009

If you’ve ever attended a network marketing event and listened to a sales pitch on why you should join the ranks of whatever company and sign up as an independent consultant, what I’m about to tell you is not news. In a down economy as this one, they’ll tout the extra income, job security, and flexibility to work in tandem with your full time job as the reasons to sign up. In an up economy, it’ll be your love of working with the product you adore, getting to meet new people, or the unlimited potential of income to be able to leave that “J.O.B.” Either way, you will never hear someone tell you, “I don’t think this is the opportunity for you.” They will get to know you and your strengths, and tell you how you can use those strengths, paired with their “proven method” to find success. By the end of the discussion, you’re actually thinking about how you can make it work in your life.

I know what happens next — it all sounds so incredibly amazing and wonderful. Work from home, bring in some extra cash, make money doing something you love. So you scrape together what extra cash you have (or whip out that credit card), invest in your starter kit and get excited about the potential and how your life is going to change. I know this because I have walked that road several times, with a variety of  MLM (or as they prefer to be called, network marketing) programs. And I’ll admit that I’ve failed. As do 95% of people that take on self-employment ventures.

Why? Because they fail to realize that they are running a business. Now I’m not trying to pick on these companies, as I have a few friends that have been VERY successful (ahem, Tarrah Brandsma, who is my absolute hero in this field) and I think that if you really work the program, it’s the easiest way to venture into the world of small business with a low investment and low risk. But most people don’t recognize that it’s good business habits that make them successful. Instead, they fall in love with the product and think that a personal endorsement of how amazing it is will convert to sales on their own.  Most people fail to embrace this reality and, in turn, they fail. I know I did.

I am really starting to see that photography-as-a-business is becoming the new fad of self-employment. When I mention to people that I am a professional photographer, I usually get, “oh yeah? I have a photography business too.” What most of these people really mean is that they own a dSLR, maybe know how to use it a little, and people are giving them some money in return for a CD of images that may or may not be retouched. Or people will tell me how much they love photography and want to make a few extra bucks or be able to stay home with their kids, but the reality is that a simple love of the product — photography — won’t make a successful business.

People think that by investing in their “photography business kit” — a dSLR combo from Costco they bought for $800 and consumer version of photo editing software, attending a few free workshops and seminars, and charging people a little bit of money for a session, that they have a photography business. I’m not trying to sound snarky, but the reality is, most people step into this venture because they love photography, not because they love running a business. And most of them have really successful photography hobbies.

I was at a PUG meeting the other night, where photography business guru Jason Aten spoke on the business aspect of our industry. He told us that 100,000 new photographers declared themselves to be “in business” in 2010.  “If you’re not making money, then you don’t have a business, you have a really expensive hobby. I’m not just saying that to be a jerk, it’s what the IRS says,” Jason said. While we all have our start-up hiccups where we seem to be bleeding money into the red like nobody’s business, if there is no intent to turn a profit, it’s not a business. And if there’s not a plan to convert the work into profit, it’s going to fail. Like Jason, I don’t have my degree in photography, I have it in business (although I don’t have an MBA from Stanford like he does), and I do what I do because I want to run a successful business.

When I first started pursuing my photography career, I tried to network with several area photographers to mentor under them, understand their business, and get my name known among their circles. I was ignored, hung up on and laughed at (no, really – one guy laughed at a portrait I showed at a critiquing workshop and told me my work was “uninteresting” and would never be valuable to anyone). It was tough to handle, but I didn’t give up because I needed to set myself apart from all the other folks out there that claimed to be aspiring professionals like me. It wasn’t until two years ago that I accepted that I needed to spend more time on my business than on my photography and it was that reality that turned the tables for me.

I am grateful to have found a beautiful network of photographers who ARE willing to impart their knowledge and help me to grow and succeed. Even so, I work hard to find ways to set myself apart from the other “photography businesses” – not that I feel that I compete with them on any level, but because I want my clients to see the value of spending money with someone that has invested in them, and, as a result, the future of their business.

As a surge of photographers continue to come into the market, I hope that each of them seeks out a mentor, and I hope my fellow professionals will be open to mentoring these people rather than pushing them away. If you’re an aspiring photographer and you’re not crazy about the business side of things – I encourage you to look into learning everything you can about your craft and finding an established photography studio that is looking for associate photographers. This way, you can do what you love without having to worry about the business side of things.

There is plenty of work out there for everyone that wants to pursue photography, but in the end, those that are business minded will prevail.

Community

On my personal blog, I’m participating in Reverb10, a writing project dedicated to reflecting on the past and putting out positive energy for the future. There are different prompts each day and yesterday’s prompt really struck a chord with me both personally and professionally. So I thought I would write about the photography community that I have been so incredibly blessed to be a part of the past couple of years.

As you may or may not know, I’ve been shooting semi-professionally since 2004. I never really knew that’s what I wanted to be when I grew up until that summer, when I finished photography classes and was asked to shoot a friend’s wedding that summer. It was the hardest thing I’d ever had to shoot – both because I wasn’t accustomed to shooting people (up until that point, I absolutely despised portraiture), and I had never shot a wedding and I was scared to death I would screw it up.

It also happened to be the week that my ex-husband and I decided to split up. Talk about a difficult thing – finding joy in the concept of marriage while you watch your seemingly perfect marriage fall apart. That was a hard day for me. But I got through it and had a great time.

The following year, I decided that I really wanted to pursue a career as a photographer, so I got a job working as an event manager and learned everything I could learn about banquets and events. I immersed myself in photography workshops and did way too much “pro-bono” work (yes, I fell for the, “you do this for free and we’ll promote the heck out of you” bit that many new photographers fall prey to). I shot my second wedding at the end of the summer and signed up to take a wedding photography workshop with a successful (albeit arrogant) photographer in the Denver area.

Four weeks and $700 later, I gave up my dream. You see, while I attended this workshop, I learned of the incredible possibilities my photography career had and I allowed myself to dream – dream BIG. I got excited and I knew that someday, I too, would get there. That is, until the host of the workshop asked us to share our work with one another and we would critique it.

I sorted through stacks of prints (yep, I was still shooting film back then) and found my favorite six shots from the two weddings I had done. I proudly put them up on the board and the host of this workshop started laughing. He called my work “boring, uninteresting, and plain” all in one sentence. He then proceeded to note that with 30,000 weddings a year in Colorado, there was more than enough work to go around, but we needed to decide if we were A, B or C photographers. When he said “C,”  he looked at me. At that moment, I assumed that I would never be an “A” photographer, and I stopped shooting as much. I didn’t even try to shoot another wedding for almost two years. I also quit participating in photographer’s groups, as I assumed that all professional photographers were as arrogant as this one was.

What I didn’t know until last summer was that this photographer was a rare exception in the photography community. Last summer, I had the opportunity to take the Create Better Images workshop with Kimberly Jarman and Jennifer Bowen. Kim and I actually went to elementary school together, although we hadn’t spoken since I moved away in 2nd grade. It was a fun little reunion of sorts, but I learned so much that day that it renewed my passion for photography and got me really excited to pursue this career once again.

I learned a lot of neat things like finding the light and creating fun composition, but the biggest thing I took away from that workshop is how incredibly supportive the photography community actually is. In the past 18 months, I have met a few dozen new photographers and not one of them has been an arrogant jerk like the one I work-shopped with five years ago. In fact, they have ALL been amazingly supportive of one another, and me, as I step back into the scene. To quote my fellow CRAVE sister, Jill Grano, “collaboration is the new competition.”  This could not be more true among the photographers I now know.

I am so thankful for re-discovering the photography community and making new friends in the process.

#72 – donate to a dozen charities in a year. Check.

I am so happy to have accomplished this goal, not that I doubted I would. Giving is just part of my nature. I love giving of my time, my talent, and my money whenever I can in order to help someone else. But often, I don’t feel that I give enough. A lot of my friends would argue that to the contrary — that I, in fact, give too much, but I don’t think there is such a thing. When I wrote this goal, it was my intent to build giving into my business model and raise awareness for some of the charities out there that don’t get much press. I hope to significantly expand on this next year, so if you’re a charity and would like to partner with me, please, just send me an email and let’s talk!

To date, the twelve charities that I have donated to (I may have forgotten one or two here, and the year isn’t over yet!):

March of Dimes – donated a portrait session to their Signature Chefs Silent Auction

Flagstaff Arts & Leadership Academy – donated a portrait session to their fundraising gala

Marshall Magnet School – donated a portrait session to their Masterpiece Gala

The 1010 project – donated and participated in their March Madness tournament (I took last place!!)

Home Base Youth Services – sponsored Kindra in the Ride for their Lives marathon

Susan G. Komen – sponsored Kathy in the Race for the Cure

National MS Society – sponsored Flora in the Life Bike 2010 race

Wish Upon a Wedding – donated a portrait session for their Blissful Wishes Ball and donated funds for Pay It Forward Day

Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep Foundation – signed up to be a photographer in support of their Charity Model Search

ten thousand nets – helped organize the Denver Community Church summer art fair that raised money to purchase life-saving mosquito nets

American Heart Association – Sponsored Thor in the Jump Rope for Heart event

American Cancer Society – Sponsored Mary Beth in the Climb to Conquer Cancer

I truly enjoyed working with all of these non-profits this year, although I am bummed that due to being in AZ, I haven’t been able to work with the two charities that are nearest and dearest to my heart – HIV Care Link and Habitat for Humanity of Metro Denver. Next year, I’ll get active with these groups again. I encourage you to learn more about these organizations and donate where you can. I look forward to championing others in the coming year!

{halloween | personal}

This week’s theme with Meggin was  Halloween. Simple, eh? I, however, spent most of Halloween weekend feeling miserably ill. It was all I could do to carve the pumpkins, with a head feeling like it was going to explode with pumpkin goo at any second. I was not feeling up to shooting. At. All.

I did, however, manage to drag myself to the NAU Homecoming parade Saturday morning, where I witnessed many folks dressed up (and already fall-down drunk, thanks to Tequila Sunrise festivities). I know I’m getting old when I was annoyed at having to chase a gal halfway up the block to give her back the phone she hadn’t even noticed she’d dropped.

I also yelled at a student photographer for taking pictures of my friend’s kiddo and then proceeding to grill her on all sorts of personal information about the kid without so much as introducing herself or sharing what she was taking pictures for or explaining how they were going to be used. And then I reminded another one who was taking shots of mine, to be careful with kids. I was well-intentioned, but I think I came off a little short with both of them. I blame the raging headache. Maybe I should have stayed in that day.

So I did shoot some photos fitting of the theme, but I guess it wasn’t exactly what I was expecting I’d shoot. Here’s my best shot (I feel all Tyra Banks on ANTM when I say that):

{autumn | personal}

I love Facebook, for so many reasons, but mostly because it’s allowed me to reconnect with so many friends that I’ve lost touch with, for various reasons, over the years.

Meggin is one of those friends. We met in high school, my junior year. She was a friend of a friend, and I didn’t exactly welcome her into the fold right away, but once I did, we were fast friends. We remained tight for several years, and an unfortunate circumstance with my (now ex-)husband caused us to part ways.

It was always bittersweet for me, since I really loved Meggin’s friendship and I always hated that we’d ended up “breaking up.”  Before that, however, Meggin had taken up an interest in photography, and I let her use me as her model on so many occasions and had a blast. She even shot our engagement portraits.

Fast forward ten years and she found me on Facebook a few months ago. We fell into our old routine as though ten years hadn’t passed, which was awesome. I asked how her photography was going and she said that she was trying to make a go of it, but didn’t have the confidence in her abilities. Which I poo-pooed and then said that she’d get more confidence simply by shooting more.

Enter me. In case you didn’t know, if I weren’t terrified of speaking in front of groups of more than 20, I could have totally been a motivational speaker. I jumped into my role as chief motivator and challenged her to a duel: let’s both shoot a common theme each week and then blog about it. She agreed.

This week’s theme: In My Yard. Here are my images, capturing autumn where we live. Meggin’s are here.

The remnants of dead sunflowers in the afternoon sun were so pretty to me.

I saw this old aspen log in the back by my dad’s equipment.

This is the “Alissa Tree,” which is my daughter’s tree. I’m not sure if it’s because she helped plant it, or if she is just in charge of caring for it. I missed that memo somehow.

And I couldn’t resist getting a shot of my darling daughter herself.

Stay tuned for next week!